Monday, June 16, 2008
Monday, March 31, 2008
In deep Gratitude,
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Today was the day. I wait anxiously for this day every winter. The day where I see a crocus coming up in the snow. What courage! What faith! What trust! I think about how I would like to be more like the crocus. Now... before you laugh at me think of this. A crocus does not fret or stew while trying to come up through the icy snow. The crocus does not wonder if spring will really come. The crocus does not worry if the sun will do it's job. There is no struggle, there is no angst just total and complete faith. The crocus comes up through the snow effortlessly, more snow will fall and yet it will still bloom. This amazes me. This demonstrates to me what it looks like to completely surrender and trust God. Everything will be okay. Even if I put myself out there and a storm comes I will still be okay. Yes, I would like to become like a crocus. This image has always been so powerful for me. I remember looking for this sign of spring while waiting for the school bus. I would be doubly excited knowing that winter was loosening it's grip as well as knowing this beautiful sight also meant my birthday was approaching. I love and have always loved my birthday. April 8. Just love the way it sounds. April 8. There was a cartoon called Grape Ape when I was little and I use to think Grape Ape April 8. That always made me smile and still does. April 8 Grape Ape. What can I say..... it doesn't take much to amuse me. I grabbed my camera pretty quickly after waking up this morning. I just had a feeling this would be the day. Sure enough, it was. Moving on to something less exciting but still important I must make a confession on this entry that I am feeling really messed up about not putting up a post every day this past week. I am struggling now with how much to even say about it. As my latest mentor, Bill Harris would say..."let everything that happens be okay." So that is what I am doing. It just is what it is. I will resisit the urge to over analyze myself or shame myself or wonder what others may be thinking of me. I am seeing more and more that a huge part of this journey is for me to explore what it looks like for me to be committed to my creativity no matter what. It is so easy to let so called life keep us from what is truly important to us. I have always been blessed with a high sense of my own mortality. This use to worry me and I use to consider it a curse. I realize now that it is truly a gift to be in tune with the fact that this life does not just go on and on and on. My physical body will change form and my time as Kimberly will be over at some point. When you are aware of this it really helps you to think about your choices. How you spend your time and who you spend it with. What is most important to you day in and day out. I sometimes think of us as each receiving a bag with slips of paper in it on our "birth" day. Each slip representing a day of our lives. No matter what we think of the day we have to give up the slip of paper at the end of the day. We can't just say "this was a bad day I don't want it to count as one of my days". Nope...doesn't work that way. We can certainly go through life in a mediocre way with mediocre jobs, friends, homes and bodies or we can play with this infinite power that we posess. I think it is true what Nelson Mandela said about it being our light we our most afraid of. I say ENOUGH!!!!!!!! Remember the beautiful song we all sang in preschool.... "this little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, let it shine". We all believed this. There is no 3 year old that doesn't believe in the power of their light. Close your eyes and think back to your little self and feel that feeling knowing that you had a light and you were going to shine it. You were just like the crocus. No doubt, no fear...only trust. Somewhere you had to learn to put out your light because that is just not natural. Make it your mission to find your light and shine it as brightly as you possibly can. Your dreams are waiting for you to make them come true.
Shining my light,
Quote of the Day: "What you are seeking is also seeking you." unknown
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Dwell on and in that.
Quote of the Day:
"We ask ourselves Who am I to be brilliant, talented, gorgeous, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?" Marianne Williamson
P.S. Thanks to Lisa for saying YES to the SARK workshop in October 2006 and thank you to SARK for giving me permission to write the TRUTH even if it scares me.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Whoops!!! I was laying down last night waiting for my son to be done with the computer so I could do my daily posting and the next thing I know it is morning! I guess I was tired. Check out the picture of the sun through the trees - isn't that beautiful??????????? I was sitting in my car waiting for my daughter and her friend and captured this stunning image. Just a few hours later the sun was down and the moon was out and full. I LOVE the moon and all of it's phases. I wasn't able to really get a good photo but I am sharing what came out. Having my camera with me all the time has been really nice and because I love visual images so much it keeps my awareness in a heightened state. Last night I went to the new cafe' in my town for some live music - pictures below. The woman who started the cafe' came over for a chat and I congratulated her and asked her how it felt to see her idea become real. Her response was to point out two people who lived in one room apartments without any family. She said they come to the cafe' to feel part of something bigger and that is what made her the happiest. Now that is GOD. She was beaming as she shared this with me and you could truly feel her heart. She then introduced me to another mother with a baby just slightly younger than Lilly. The babies were connecting while I was getting to know her parents. I shared with them a litte about Lilly's history and what was going on in the world with the orphan crisis. She asked me to be the first speaker at a new mother's group she is starting. YES! I sharedwith her the ideas that Sharlyn and I have for doing our part about raising awareness and helping to fund adoptions both domestically and internationally. They both responded with a lot of emotion and energy helping to keep the dream alive. I haven't shared about that yet on this blog but my daughter was born in China and remained an orphan for the first 10 months of her life. You can see a picture of this sleeping angel on this post. She is a blessing in every single way. While raising funds for the journey to adopt her it become very clear to Sharlyn and I that God was calling us in a big way. I have to confess that there have been moments that I don't want to answer the call. It feels so big and I don't know HOW. We have to answer though. We can't wait for a perceived perfect moment in the future. The ego sometimes wants to trick me into thinking - not now, maybe later. You have more important things to do. Are you kidding me??? Something more important than raising awareness about these precious children and inspiring people to do their part? What could be more important than that? As I recently heard Van Jones say "....we can have no throw away children.....". We believe that the orphans are serving an evolutinary role in humanity. We do not pity them as they are some of the strongest spirits alive on the planet today. They still find it in them to smile while going through hunger, despair and a lack of love and safety. They are teaching us so much. We hear a lot of talk about oneness these days, the idea that there are 6 billion manifestations of the same energy on this planet. As we begin to really embody this we start to take more responsibility. We start to see the suffering as something that we are not responsible for but responsible to. Sometimes things seem so big and we think we can't make a difference. I have thought this many times in my life. Global warming, the orphan crisis, Darfur.....all these things are just so BIG. It is easy to think that my actions won't have an impact. This is WRONG. If everyone just did something it would change the world. It really would. People hear world peace and they immediately think it won't ever happen. Well, not so long ago people were talking about an end to slavery and it seemed impossible. It takes a brave group of people to start talking about things that other people may scoff at or tell us that we are dreaming. I heard Marianne Williamson say that social scientists are now saying that it only takes 11% of the population to create profound change. Be in that 11%. So it is our committment to stand in the gap between the orphans of the world and the people who can help them. We look forward to all the ways we can build bridges between the two. Yes, it feels daunting. Sometimes I get scared or confused but I really have no choice. There is nothing in this world that makes me more excited than knowing a child is being loved. The time is right now to recognize these children and to make a stand for them as if they belong to us. Because they do.
Imagine a world where every child is loved and how this would change the world,
Quote of the Day:
We can do no great things - only small things with great love. Mother Teresa
Friday, March 21, 2008
Sedona, Arizona........just do yourself a favor and buy a plane ticket and see it for yourself. I saw it for the first time last year and it truly made me cry. It was just a steady stream of "Oh My God" coming out of my mouth as well as Sharlyn's - my travel partner - we just could not process all of that mind bending beauty. God is most definitely in Sedona. I will be there again three weeks from tomorrow. I am so blessed. This is what I am sharing with you today because my digital camera is having a small problem that I hope to get resolved tomorrow. Since I started this project my car has broken down, my washer stopped working and now my camera. What has occurred to me is that we take so many things for granted. We have so many modern day luxuries in this country. Instead of being frustrated by these inconveniences I have used it as an opportunity to cultivate an even deeper sense of gratitude for all that I do have. It is so easy to look at what we don't have but there is no joy in that. It is okay to have a vision for more in your life, whatever more looks like to you but the ONLY way to get there is through gratitude for what you have now. Right now. This very moment. Look around and just start making the mental list of all that you have. A computer to read this on, clothes on your back, food in your belly and the comfort of knowing you can eat again today and you will not go to bed hungry - the list could go on and on but you see where I am headed. There is so much to be grateful for and we so easily overlook it. My daughter Heidi and I noticed a cemetary this week that we had never seen. It is behind some trees and slightly elevated from the road. I have lived in this place nearly 40 years and my daughter has lived here for 14 and we NEVER, EVER saw this cemetary and we have driven by it many times a week for a long, long, long time. What struck me about this is that we are so busy looking right in front of us that we don't see what is just beyond that. It blows my mind to think that we get so used to seeing things a certain way that we might not even see what is really there. I see this as a sign of two things. One: If you think there is nothing to be grateful for just open your eyes, take another look - you might be missing the obvious and Two: Expand your vision. Look beyond what you can even see with your eyes. Know that just because you can't see it doesn't mean it is not there. So imagine me now driving down the same road I have been down many days a week for my entire life and now I see something that has always been there but I didn't, couldn't or wouldn't see it. I look up and it reminds me that even when we don't think we are seeing God it doesn't mean that God is not there. Open your eyes. God is EVERYWHERE.
Trust that you have everything you need,
Quote of the Day: As powerful as you are....whose day are you going to make today? Mike Dooley
P.S. What are you waiting for? Go book that flight to Sedona. Just do it.